An Hour To Go.

Every year on the night before my birthday I tend to reflect on the year that has passed and what I have achieved and how I have changed as a person. This year, in particular, has been rather eventful. From raging at men to crazy drunken nights out with the girls, I do not feel that I have wasted my final year of being a teenager as much as I initially thought. As well as being thrown head first into second year in September, there have also been other things that have gone on over the past year that I consider my crucial lessons learnt that must be remembered.

Things I have learnt this year:

- Being a student is a lot of fun, when you balance everything out and know you have earnt the reward of a crazy night out.

- When you don't want to do something that has to be done, you will find anything and everything to use as a form of procrastination. I never used to put things off so much and being at uni has made me lazy. I always get my work done, but maybe I need to improve on my time-keeping and stick to my plans totally and completely. And not get distracted by tv shows and browsing the internet for pretty pictures.

- History can repeat itself. Even if you have the strongest willpower in the world, being tempted to the point that you can't hold on to your self-control anymore is still possible. I wish that I could say I was a better person and that I could control my emotions and live my life led by logic and common sense rather than my feelings. It will never happen, but I can dream.

- In relation to the lesson above, I have learnt that feelings get in the way of everything, including right and wrong. I don't do regrets but I am very aware that many of my recent actions make me a bitch (and that is a polite name to be called in such a situation).

- I love vintage clothing, lipstick and nail varnish. These things are going to evenutally take over my life if I ever relent and start buying excessive amounts of things that I really do not need.

- When I decide I want something I become obsessed with it and find reasons to justify be ridiculous desire, i.e a red maxi dress in the style of Jessica Rabbit. I want one, asap.

- Sitting around and making plans for everything just isn't worth it. I have decided I need to live sometimes, without major planning and wondering and writing lists. In order to get the degree I want it works, for the every day it just seems to much. Shopping lists seem to be the best way to go; otherwise I am wasting time planning when I could be doing.

And soon I will be 20. A year closer to the real world and adulthood. FEAR. Where is the Jack Daniels?!?!